I am editing parts and pieces of Embrace Me and waiting on the final edit by Harahkte before that is posted should be sometimes tomorrow, we are quite busy these days and can not work on it as much as we usually do.Also I can hardly concentrate, my sister was supposed to have a baby via C-Section tomorrow but they forgot they had scheduled her and pushed it back several days which worries the hell and back out of me. She is getting very near to her due date and is NOT supposed to go into labor because the cord is three times around the her son’s neck.. there is a chance that he could die and she with him. So I had to call my parents to make sure they check that the docs finally noted that date in stone. I am very very worried about my lil sister, it is her first baby and she is 19 years old, I wish she could have had a less troublesome pregnancy but I guess that runs in the family, I can not recall an easy pregnancy in my family in the last well… ever. But besides the point until my nephew is born I will be on the edge. These are the times where i hate to live so far away from my family. One of my sisters lives in Singapore, the other in Germany. Enough from my personal life though, I just had to vent for a second or 10 
Anyways here the new pictures: One in the still untitled story: Clicky! In Embrace Me the last two pictures on page three HERE We let Lerania out of her cage! Then in Do not lose [yourself] we have two more scenes Click Me Finally a close up of Raijin and his cousin And last but not least the Serpent Mistress from Serpent Mine
I am back, had a lot of fun even though I was sick mostly, have been for several weeks now BUT I got better while relaxing at the Marriott Resort.
Now that I unpacked my stuff I am going to start editing and typing the handwritten parts of Embrace me I did while sunbathing and drinking fancy frozen drinks ( due to my health status they were all “Virgin”. ) But yeah I finally feel human again which will help writing bigtime. It is quite distracting being nauseus non stop and gave me a real damper.
But yay I am back and better at last!
I am leaving for a mini anniversary honeymoon tomorrow and will be gone till Sunday. I extra do not take my lap top with me to spend the time only with my husband:)Other than that, another miniseries turned story in my mind and will get more attention while I wait on Harahkte to get his part of our co op done 
Got my winter theme done or more the holiday winter version of a theme that will change… ah you know the drill. I changed the contest into monthly things with giftcards totalling 200 USD ( depending on how you get your things in ). Not every contest will be with prizes that high, but months with special holidays ( special where I live and for me ) will get the higher prizes! Check out the contest post in the side nav.
I had not planned in Thanksgiving and all the effort it costs to make that happen, as well as my time being planned for me… eh. My mother in law decided to give the bridal shower for some old school friend of my husband. So I am kinda driven out of the house tomorrow when I wanted everything to get set up. But there is no way in hell that I am going to attend a bridal shower in my life. They even misspelled my name on the invitation.. Invitation to my OWN freaking house… I mean, technically I do OWN the house. No, they actually did not just misspell my name but.. gave me a new one. But besides the point, I hate being thrown into groups of people I do not know, schoolfriend of my husband or not they haven’t seen each other since my husband had his severe accident and all but a few real friends forgot about him. So he has no desire to see her either… we will be going to the movies instead XD Hitman came out and I totally want to see that one. Hence no new story till next week. But on a more good side of news, I finally aged Arien’s looks some more. She will now look like more between 18 and 22, less baby fat and a little more defined facial features. Though she was 18 at the beginning of the story, but yeah parts of me are in her…. I still get carded at every club and restaurant… Apparently I look like a minor.. I am a 24 year old mother for goodness sakes.. Oh well I am not unhappy looking young XD I hope that stays that way until I am old haha.
Before I was with my current host I had an account with dreamhost. Not only was their service the worst I had ever experienced, with downtimes of several hours ever day during the month I was with them. They claim to have 90 days money back so when I finally had enough of their half assed excuses and being insulted by another user in words I won’t even bother to write up here, I packed my stuff and left, telling the customer service that I was done and wanted my money back. They gave me the link to the cancellation which then stated I was getting my 300 something bucks back. I did get them back too, and for me the case was closed… well apparently today they decided to try and bill the 300 they gave back again sending me some threats to pay up. That is seriously funny stuff. I am going to give them 24 hours to clean up this mess before I drag the case to my attorney, because I’ve had it with dreamhost and their horrible practices. I would not even suggest my worst enemy to sign up with that horrible company. Make sure that before you sign up with a host you read their status blog. In other words, dreamhost really sucks!
Every year around the fall and winter holidays I fight the same battle with… myself. Haunted by all the TV ads and the overdone decorations everywhere you go. People seem to be forgetting a few things. I personally could not care less about Thanksgiving. I am 50% Cherokee and in my mind this whole thing is.. not sitting well. Give thanks for? Being fed by the native americans just to survive and take away their land? No, I won’t give thanks for that, but yet I still stand in the kitchen for 3 days and cook up to 8 hours a day. Why? Well I married a family, not just my husband, and they are very fond of all these holidays. Each in their own way for other reasons. Their families were immigrants and celebrating Thanksgiving for them might be a reminder of how they have survived the hardships of starting anew and accomplished their big and little goals. I can understand that and I love them very much and therefor I will be the one treating them to a grand dinner. They would accept if I told them to go find someone else for stuff like this, but they took me in the way I was, with all my troubles and treated me as their own. Now there I have a reason to be thankful. Also naturally they are older than me and I can imagine that when they were small things were a lot different, they were relatively poor and still their mothers made the feast happen, somehow. And I am pretty sure it was not so overdone like it is these days. Can you say hi to rivalry? Who has the best feast where will the parents spend thanksgiving where will the daughter in law go to her own family or her in laws? Which will be talked about the most? So totally stupid questions and unneccesary fights.. but oh hell yeah they happen a lot. One of them being in our own family. My husbands uncle and aunt have to do everything twice because their daughter and their daughter in law HATE each other. They wont even let their kids play together or be on the same table at a family holiday. How are those two being thankful? No, they just put their in laws or parents through hell making them chose and yes the other party will be very dissapointed. It does not fit the false friendliness they will put on during the retarded dinner. It is missing half of the family? Is it not? Now their son is just as much in the middle of it feeling horrible about the fact that his sister and his wife can not make it through 2 hours near each other. But he is dieing from a horrible heart desease and they all should be thankful for every day they spend with him. Unless he wont get a new heart he will fade in the near future. But it does not matter the own ego is more important then that. And why do we need special days to be thankful? I let my family know I love them as often I can, but hey whatever the industry comes up with to make insane sales, I am sure works. To end this paragraph, thank you for letting me be who I am and I will compromise to honor what makes you happy. This does give me the feeling that I should have I suppose but again for my own reasons. Harahkte I love now and every day!Now that we had the tv ads brought up, I really can not stand the whole journey diamond thing. No I hate it… You would to if you saw the press presentation of that huge Belgium Diamond Company whose name I refuse to put into my blog! How they put 300 Million Dollars (maybe even more I can not remember exactly ) into their stupid campaign while the people mining those diamonds do it for less then 3 dollars a day…. Hey assholes how about giving them a little raise… your tv ads suck so bad they aren’t worth 1 cent! I don’t think I need a diamond necklace to believe that my husband he loves me, he would not dare giving me something that was reason for the mistreatment of the workers in Sierra Leone. Hell no he would not dare! Presents are nice but I get spoiled all year around which I love naturally, so the whole X-Mas thing is just another day in my life where I tell everyone that I love them like I do every other day. The only one who gets special treatment that day is the kid. I am not into church and the whole Jesus thing, whom I strongly believe was born in summer anyways! But my daughter is 5 years old and not quite ready to make up her mind and until she does I will celebrate it the way she imagines in her dreams, but that is the only reason!I guess I am just really rambling out, there is so much in my mind, and why, this is all not all that important.To my family and friends I love you and I can not tell you all that often enough!
I would again point out to NEVER repost my stuff on other pages. It is plain rude! I filed a lot DMCA notices this year and will continue to do so. And on that note, it seems that people all over the net are just assholes that like to make others believe that some art they have is actually their own work. It sucks really does, if you repost art get a permission from the artist and DO credit them with a good to read name and if possible link. Ev everything else is just against all good taste. I hate to believe a piece of art that I called great and told the person I thought was the artist that I love their work just to then on mistake find out this wasn’t actually done by them I get mad at such with no word was it mentioned that it was not their piece until someone found out. Even if you have the permission of the artist and leave a watermark on the picture as long you do NOT say that this isn’t your work people will believe it is. That is my rant for this week but it really vexes me!
On another note I am going to work again! Yay, no not for money, I’ll keep making my money with art and all that but voluntarily. I am going to work in a crisis pregnancy center to help some mom-to-be’s and fresh moms through the rather harsh times especially when you are all alone. I did that back in Germany and enjoyed that work a lot! Now I will see what challenges young mothers face in the US though I think the main problems are the same everywhere. Not enough tolerance and not enough help. I was barely 18 when I had my daughter and it was NOT a fun time but Pro Familia’s group for young mothers helped me a lot, so much that I decided I’d help them back 
I am very excited
Yeah I finally presorted all my stuff into separate categories, now I have to start installing. Really annoying and lengthy process but in the end I will be pretty happy with my new smaller runtimes, it will improve the performance and the visibility in my runtimes lots. No more searching 5 hours for this dress hehe. But gah I do have better things to do. Started building around with a NWN2 tile set and figured damn this is great but will take much more time than it did in NWN.. And I am writing on a big big chunk of Embrace Me.
Yes I haven’t updated Embrace Me for some days, not been feeling overly great and some migraines really got into the way of my creativity. Though I worked on several pages that I will edit today or tomorrow and then post. Also I have joined yet another project namely Menzoberranzan for NwN2 so drow stuff is on my mind a fair share of the time and I am eager to try out some more stuff on that sector. But yes Embrace Me is my baby and it will be nurtured and grown up Getting to that as soon the last numbing stabs of my headache are gone. Which I really hope is soon because it is driving me crazy!